For years I wanted to go into education.
Now I am in education. I am not a teacher, though. I work for the technology department of a school district. So I do work in the field of education.
I’m not sure if it’s ironic that I am working in education. When I said I had spent many years wanting to work in education, it was specifically to teach. I wanted to become a teacher. Now here I am working in education, but not as a teacher.
As much as I enjoy working for the district, I know the capacity in which I serve is a much better fit and more in alignment with my strengths, passions, and talents than teaching for a school would have been. But for a very long time I still felt that pull, that draw to teach in some capacity. I feel like it is more of a resonance with my spirituality than with formal education. I’ve never been a very formal guy, in any event.
So I’ve been examining the many paths of spiritual teaching. As I send my spiritual scouts out through the electronic ether to see what there is to see, I find a plethora of forms of spiritual teaching. Coming from an environment of formal education where critical thinking, deductive reasoning, and measurable aptitude are the monarchs of the system, the residents of the landscape of spiritual awakening, learning, and self growth seem invisible in the daylight of the normal nine to five, only to show their bioluminescence in the depths of the internet, blanketing the virtual sky like stars in an alpine meadow.
I encounter the countless shingles of energy healers, spiritual teachers, psychics, life coaches with the click of each link. The sheer numbers available is staggering, nearly overwhelming. I respect and admire any and every one of them that have felt this life path unfold before them and have had the courage to walk among its brambles, stones, and cracks. I applaud the fact that they walk in the light among what sometimes seems to be the spiritual undead.
But is this my path? I love seeing people “heal” in their lives. I love seeing people experience true joy. It thrills me to see people embrace the beauty of life, of their own lives. But I don’t know if have the Moses in me to lead anyone across a parted sea of their own challenges. As much as I love my own life, I’m still working out all the details, making me wonder what qualifies me to coach anyone else. Yes, I am keenly aware of my recent post on my credentials, but those credentials qualify me to teach myself. For anyone to reach the place in life I have reached, wouldn’t they have to duplicate my every historical move, place their foot in each of my historical footprints? Hence the idea behind this entire blog.
I have had many teachers in my lifetime, but they have consisted of enlightening passages from several books, from profound quotes I have come across from a variety of people and sources, some familiar friends and other long dead historical icons. I have had teachers that have come in the form of experiences I have gone through. I have learned through the observations of those around me. All my learnings seem to comprise of fragments and shards of experiences and teachings that I have picked up along the way, on the way to where I am now.
So really it’s about the capacity in which to teach, the means of delivering the information I have available to share. I still feel the pull, but perhaps it’s not necessarily through the formats that seem apparent, that seem to be the obvious routes. Perhaps I have always been a teacher, perhaps I am being a teacher, and perhaps I will become a teacher. I may not ever have a classroom or stand in front of a podium. The knowledge I have to impart may not be tidily packed into a tome. But it appears I teach through being, through living, just as all my teachers have been a collage of people, places, and things, none of which I can identify as standing on its own and its entirety.
So with that I will embrace what I see in my life as teaching through living, the lessons I can offer broadcasted like seeds from a dandelion, landing where the wind may take them. I refer to it as guerilla teaching.